DOWN MOOD !!!

What should i do ? if cry i can get thing i want ? impossible !!
I really ''HATE'' my family...they can't give me happiness..i can't feel any happiness feeling from them...what i thinking they also dun know...i really not close with my family :'( actually who am i also dun know !!!
i want tat thing is very simple can get it...is FREEDOM !! but why i very hard want to get it ? me almost CRAZY !! I'm feel very pressure when front with family...i more like with fren...with fren everysecond , everyminute , everyhour , everyday is HAPPY ~ I LOVE FRIEND ♥